for as long as i can remember, i've always been the type of person to plan out everything-my outfit for the day, dinner next week, my career path, and everything else that falls under the category of "life." moving to Charlotte was never a part of my plan, and neither was moving back home after 10 months. but life happens, and with every change came a new plan.
2008 began with an unexpected, rather dramatic change. so obviously, i quickly designed a new path for myself. i decided i would finish the school year in Charlotte, then move back to St. Louis the day after school got out. yep, that was the plan. no questions about it, 100% certain. as the last day of school creeps closer and closer, i'm beginning to think that my plan may not be exactly what i want to do anymore. i'm getting rather comfortable here and beginning great friendships that i'll be sad to leave. more and more often i hear somber mumbles of, "i think you should stay in Charlotte..." then i call family and old friends to hear excited voices say "i can't wait 'til you come home!" i suppose i should feel good about everyone wanting me to live near them, but i don't. i just feel torn.
for once in my life, i don't really know what i'll be doing or where i'll end up. that's a scary thought. or so it used to be. for another first in my life, i'm not so worried about following my guide. i just keep faith in the idea that everything happens for a reason, and everything will work out according to His plan.
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I can totally see where you are coming from. It has to be hard hearing it from both ends of the spectrum. You just need to do what's best for you and know that everything works out for a reason, no matter how cliche that sounds. Whatever you do- we'll stay in touch :)
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